My Story

As a young girl, I lived with my parents and brother. I was filled with wonderment of the world around me. I loved life. I loved everything and everyone around me. I took the greatest pleasure in just being outside with the sun, wind, clouds, trees, birds, insects, flowers, and animals. I loved to be amongst it all and feel carefree.

At the age of eight, this all changed for me when a horrific event occurred. My mother’s best friend, at the time, killed her two young children, children with whom I had been playing that very day.

This was my first brush with pure terror. As such a young child myself, I was not able to deal with or process such an experience. The feelings of being frightened, unsure, out of control, and anxious embedded themselves in my mind. 

I noticed as a teenager that anxiety would get “triggered and appear” whenever I felt things were “out of my control”. 

Feeling scared, doubtful, and anxious became my regular companions. This made me feel a strong sense of discomfort and disease so I went into overdrive trying to control all the circumstances that would “set me off”. 

Not an effective strategy at all! No-one can control external circumstances. 

So I found my anxiety increasing and gaining such a power over me, that at one point in my life, it was almost crippling. My anxiety had made me it's prisoner! 

In my mid-thirties, as a mother of three young children, I was barely functioning.

I wasn’t sleeping, I was crying often, I was experiencing multiple physical symptoms of stress in my body and was a shell of my former self. I was totally lost in a foreign and barren wasteland of despair. 

All signs of the fun-loving, carefree, natural young spirit I came into this world as had almost but disappeared into oblivion. 

I knew that if I didn’t stand up and start to face these fears head-on, I would drown in them. 

This is when my story began to transform.

I slowly started to return to my innermost instincts. I started spending more time outside again. I understood that I needed help returning to my natural state of being, so I allowed nature to soothe me when I needed it. 

I reached out for help from others whom I trusted. 

I started to meditate. 

I used a number of natural therapies to help calm me down.

Slowly, very slowly, a sense of balance began to re-emerge. 

This was a journey. One I took a step at a time. It was challenging, very challenging at times but as I reflect back, I would not change one single moment of “the story”.

As with all hardships, they have their purpose.

Not only have I “grown out of this anxiety”, but it has taught me that we all possess many qualities. Resilience, strength, knowledge, understanding, compassion, empathy, and love are a few qualities that have grown in strength within me. Peace, calm, joy, and that natural happiness of life are the most predominant now. 

My intention is to dedicate my energy towards guiding people back to their own “Natural State of Being”. 

Everyone is whole, complete, and resourceful. When we understand we are not “our story”, we are much, much more than a story, then we are FREE to live our lives fully, deeply, and wholly.